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cancer can kiss my ass

“Life is like a Pizza, you can be given the whole thing and be satisfied or you can be given a slice and be thankful that you got one. Sometimes the slice is respected more than the whole Pizza.”KOCSIS

THIS IS ANOTHER MOMENT:

in which I have been given the ability to question the most simple(or maybe quite complex) concepts.It seems to me as if humans are programmed to be blind to their own mortality(either that or we are programmed not to dwell on it unless the need may arise if it arises at all), for would it not be a complete frenzy if we all knew our day of death? We would at least see our life in a different perspective. Maybe it’s some kind of safety buffer built into us that prevents complete chaos from occurring? We seem to laugh, pshh, or whisper such topics away as if it is some sort of taboo. The way we deal with death is seemingly not to talk about it but ironically it’s one of the most amazing things that happens to us. However it’s something that we may not ever completely understand so we are afraid or just don’t think about it. In other words, "We tend to ignore things of great importance when we dont quite understand it, We are not being blind or ignorant, we just don't know some things"
Well I kid you not, this cancer experience has taught me more than any course, degree, diploma, or certificate ever will. It clues you into a bit more of the true picture of earth. It almost seems as if many people(like I was before this) can go on and live life and be completely blind to a certain concept of it. It’s kind of hard to explain. Nobody knows for sure what lies ahead for us after we die(maybe something or nothing) However what I have come to realize is that Heaven and Hell seem to be a place(s) on earth, hence the fact that some people may relate it to an afterlife concept. The reason I say this is because I have experienced both to some extent. My Cancer experience has made me realize how people deal with the concept of death. Many are afraid and ignore the reality of it as a way to cope with it but from my perspective it has obviously been a very true concept and yes is it ever scary. I don’t care how “tough” or “cool” one may dress or act, when death is knocking at your door it ain’t gonna help one bit.
Cancer has definitely led me to question my faith and the concept of how people may relate it to religion. The only concept that I can come up with is that they may be two different things. For example, my faith has been strengthened throughout this experience but my religious thoughts are just everywhere/nowhere(if that makes sense) The reason I say this is because It has opened up my mind to the diverse religious beliefs that exist in our global society and gosh does every group have a different concept of it. But the fact is that we don’t know what lies ahead of us after death and we didn’t just come out of nowhere, hence the term faith. You can have faith and not be religious and/or you can have faith and express it in a religious type of concept. But can one have faith without a religion? Maybe but one idea I have of it is: It takes wings for an airplane to fly but the magic of it is hard to explain. Humans are on earth but the magic of it is hard if not imposible to completly explain. Either way, believe it or not, it's happening. Have some "faith/trust" in what may have put all of us here onto Earth.
A lot of people believe/don’t believe in God based on the good or bad things that may have happened to them in life. All I have to say about that is Shit happens and Orgasmic things happen. It’s just part of life. Some may experience more of one than the other. Accept it move on and don’t think that’s all there is to it. It is more complex than that. “If there is an intelligence that we owe our existence[possible next existence] to it is so far beyond our understanding that all religions and philosophies are completely [right]wrong about it”Sometimes and many times I wonder, what is it all for? What is the meaning(s) of life? Why do we have to die? Are we just passing from one state of consciousness to another? After experiencing such greatness on earth why do we have to leave it?(but don’t get me wrong, for every great thing there seems to be a bad somewhere on earth) No one can honestly tell you they have the answer. These questions may only have personal meaning and may never be completely answered in the human form. Yes we are physically limited by many things such as gravity, temperature, and oxygen tolerances but it seems to be of little nuisance to those who are not aware of the vast universe and beyond.Finally, there are many detrimental diseases, but everyone fears just cancer. If cancer does not happen to you don’t worry, there are over 6000 illnesses and diseases that may. Nobody lives in the end which leads me to a piece that I found on another website: “The fact that I beat cancer shouldn't give anybody hope about their own mortality. We're all gonna die, and everybody we know is going to die. That you can't beat it. No, if I had my way, I would rather people saw all this and said to themselves, "Oh man, I'm really gonna die one day." I mean, it's really going to happen. I just dodged it this time, that's all. I'm going to live my life a little bit longer than nature intended. So, again, rather than giving hope to people, I would rather this all alarmed people. I would rather that this freaked everybody out and they all ran out of their offices and their apartments and found somebody to love, and something to live for, and complained less, and enjoyed each other more.”